just like the weather...

yep it's raining inside too... i don't know what triggers it, could it be the anxious/nervousness about business school or his absence starting to kick in or the combination of both.

while you were gone

while sitting under the dark tinted window, i turned on the radio, and this song was on.
luckily it was dark this morning, so no one could see my moist eyes...

fireflies

i've tried, but somehow, all those good memories with you, seems to vanished, i couldn't remember... were we ever do nice things? were we ever spend some quality time together? how come i'm not able to remember all that? but i do remember all your stories with her, all those nice things you gave her.

i never thought about it b4, but a recent conversation with her, made me realised, perhaps i was never take part in your life. i was just merely an audience.

second that always the last

sometimes it do feels as if i'm a second class citizen just because i'm missing the other important half. sure with all the events that's been happening my entire life, i'm supposed to get used to it, but i didn't. it just feels even more lonely everytime it occurs...

two zero zero nine.

someone have asked me what's my 2009 resolution, and i've simply answered nothing... whilst the truth is i just want to loved, to be taking care of... and of course work in that company still ^^. and perhaps it's another year in this humid city.




you treat me like a vision in the night
someone there to stand behind you
when your world ain't working right
i ain't no vision, i am the girl
who loves you inside and out

honestly

honestly, eventhough sometimes i talked gibberish, things does happen just like i said it would (hence, you being a personal photographer for that famous someone). and honestly, sometimes i just closed my eyes and tried to imagine things, and things did happened the way i imagine it would be...

and the night before i dreamed of you-with that blue shirt you were wearing and also with that unshaven freshly grew beard-came to see me just to stare at me. well, i do appreciate what you tried to remind me (considering that i was no longer your concern, well, i never was any of your concern). i am aware of what i should soon decide. but it's not as simple as saying yes or no, to go or to stay. and honestly, if someone were to came up to me and decide what 'i should do' for me, i would just agree without any hesitation.

but in the mean time, i'm just going to close my eyes, and imagine things...

the round about

so.. i guess after 3 round abouts, 7 highways and 4 gas stations... our friendship ends at new year's eve...