i dream of gennie

whilst everyone else falls asleep soundly, i sneaked out and saw him, standing idly. looking sharp with shirt and his black pants as usual, smiling. then the scenery changed very quickly, he held my hand and we walked towards my family. he greeted everyone nicely, even my most annoying uncles and aunts. *sigh*...

then i heard my alarm ringing, and he was gone :)

when i was 12...

when i was 12...
i imagine myself living on my own in an apartment overseas (check)
i imagine i would be working on my own and be my own boss (check)

despite what just happened, i'm lucky and i'm thankful for that :)

and now i'm 25...
i would like to find you, ommo...

fabricated

x : k, perhaps what he was trying to say was, 'i don't want anything to do with you anymore!'
k : so, what should i do then?
x : nothing, just don't bother him anymore... you are no longer exist in his world, and vice versa...
i think that's what best.
k : ... i wish he would just said it in person, instead of...
i feel terrible, really awful, it's like i just committed a crime, it was all my fault isn't it?
x : i honestly don't know k... i don't know... perhaps it was all fabricated...