not young but still so very naive...

it comes to a point where i don't even know what to write anymore. life's flowing static-ly and i haven't got my visa. feeling kinda hermit-y nowadays. spent my days in my room, or hopping here and there with my little sister or as most of you already know staring at my mobile phone - seems the only way i could communicate with him-.

to be quite honest, sometimes i forgot about little bits and pieces that i now have a significant someone-whom i would (hopefully) spend the rest of my life with-, not because he's not around, but because i'm so used to be all alone even in the mist of crowd that i knew each and every one of them, i feel lonely.

oh.. a recent event makes me realized that as u grew older and ur career soars, some are only be friended you for business purposed. profitable friends and no need to feel bad about it. gosh... i had her best interest at mind, i'm so naive.