faith and all that jazz

it's true i haven't wrote anything since i arrived in melbourne...not that i don't have any spare time-well, i almost don't have any time to spare-but it's more of me losing myself. i've said things that aren't meant to be mentioned at all. i didn't do nor do i behave as i normally would. i am holding back to be honest, not because i'm scared, but it's more that i'm loosing myself yet again.

oh well... i do have doubts of what i would be like, and what will i do after this course, but he seems to have big faith that i will do fine and even better...
i just hope he's right. my nosey, who is now as bald as upin and ipin...

H-2

like rambo said this afternoon, it's H-2, and i'm started to get pre-departure jitters...
haven't really packed yet.. and this this the state of my room..

not young but still so very naive...

it comes to a point where i don't even know what to write anymore. life's flowing static-ly and i haven't got my visa. feeling kinda hermit-y nowadays. spent my days in my room, or hopping here and there with my little sister or as most of you already know staring at my mobile phone - seems the only way i could communicate with him-.

to be quite honest, sometimes i forgot about little bits and pieces that i now have a significant someone-whom i would (hopefully) spend the rest of my life with-, not because he's not around, but because i'm so used to be all alone even in the mist of crowd that i knew each and every one of them, i feel lonely.

oh.. a recent event makes me realized that as u grew older and ur career soars, some are only be friended you for business purposed. profitable friends and no need to feel bad about it. gosh... i had her best interest at mind, i'm so naive.

road trippy with a gypsy

so we met... and the rest just flow naturally... i guess this time it's safe to say i (heart) him ^^

bacon flavored potato

perhaps it was too soon, but i guess it was definitely...

well it's a long shot, but i never had anyone said it and actually mean it. funny isn't it, couple of guys before him said the same thing with serious face, nervously, and firm voice..but none of them really mean it. him on the contrary was blunt and out of the blue. which then caused a mess in the fruit area at a supermarket when i read it... i dropped a roll of fruit packaging plastic, which then was asked by the supermaket attendee why were my right shoe is different from the left one, in which i'm sure as he looked me in the face, he would certainly think i'm retarded! then after i cleaned up my mess at the fruit section.. i realized my grandma wasn't around... o..boy! and up to a few days later, although my heart begins to pump harder in an irregular beat that seems only runs to my face (baca. blushing) everytime my phone beeps... i still think what he said the other day was a joke, just another absurd thing he usually says to his friends...

he did mention it over and over for almost a week, but my brain still couldn't registered what was going on with us? so i asked if it was true and the rest was as you can imagine ^^

piggy potato

it's been almost a week, yet i still don't know what to say..

i'm happy

i guess that's all that i can say for now...

broken social scene

i take comfort in a repetitif songs...