you don't know me

I wanna ask you -
Do you ever sit and wonder,
It's so strange
That we could be together for
So long, and never know, never care
What goes on in the other one's head?

Things I've felt but I've never said
You said things that I never said
So I'll say something that I should have said long ago:

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)...

mundanely peculiar

no update from me, except that i've been visiting a lot of ppl these days, having coffee and extendable lunch.

oh btw, i got this very peculiar msg the other day, it's says something about being official, or a grand/soft opening... oh well, i'm sure he meant to send the msg to someone else not for me. and other than that, everything runs as usual. and i'm excited to take mr bugsy for a run tomorrow.

time

i've always thought that... no i have never thought about getting married, because i just never really quite thought about it. not that i don't want to get married, it's just that i never really given it some thought.

well, now... i start to realise tiny bits about getting married, about how important it is to have your spouse to get a long with your family. because i fear i'm about to lose someone dear, because of it. i certainly hope not, perhaps time will have the answer...

GMAT 800

no, i haven't took my gmat yet, i wish it could be around 600 though T___T.

as you all know, i've been staring at empty spaces lately, most of the time just thinking, and inventing new theories on life, but, as i sit in front to my computer ready to share it with the rest of the world, i forgot all about it... perhaps it was just a dream, that i discover something.

the last two weeks has been hard, i thought i wasn't going to make it, but here i am. honestly, i didn't feel like saying anything about it also, i only share it with d and s. though d is miles away and in another continent too, but...i felt save talking to her, even only through sms. it's funny how things worked out. you got a bunch of new friends, but still, the ones that you share the important moments of your life are just a few of them, and it's countable my hand. and how sometimes, you just didn't realise it, nor did you keep contact with them as often. but for all of that, i do realise how important it is to try to always be there for them...

hospital days

been spending my days at the hospital, mostly just waiting, and staring blankly at nothing, worried if i can't make it through, and hoping i can make it through...

his name came in mind a couple of times, thinking should i tell him? no? should i? no! i did mention about it to him when me met for the last time at the bus, but at that time i didn't know it will become much much worse...

the worst days of my life, i couldn't even bare to fall asleep, afraid something might happened and i missed it, and i couldn't make it through.

honto

i did disappear this last couple of days. now i want to dissolve completely into nothingness...i honestly don't know what to do, except for bearing it on my own. hoping... hoping... hoping... i am hoping...for a recovery.